if only the world was banana shaped...

Of Montreal!

2005-09-15T19:29:00.000-08:00

Wow. Of Montreal was amazing last night. It was so much fun. Northampton is about 900 degrees, and being in a room with a bunch of happy dancy jumpy people and lights and some awesome Elephant 6 rock was HOT. They played a great set list, mostly from Sunlandic Twins and Satanic Panic in the Attic, and tried out a new song (which was awesome, and i got on video). The Management opened for them. They opened last time I saw them too. I think they were better this time. They had more songs and new their stuff better. They were more into it I think. It was pretty fun. But Of Montreal was amazing. I felt bad because I was wearing my Decemberists shirt, but I bought an Of Montreal t-shirt, so I can wear that to concerts later this year. No one ever actually reads this, so I don't particularly feel like going into details about every note they played. Suffice to say, it was awesome and I look forward to the next one. :)

College

2005-09-13T10:34:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm back at college... I suppose now that I have ethernet I no longer have an excuse not to post. So I will. But mostly about concerts and photos. I'm going to see Of Montreal for the second time tomorrow night. Later in the year: Doves/VHS or Beta, The Decemberists. I'm excited. Classes are going well. I guess I'll write more later. :)

It's the end of the world as we know it

2005-06-09T00:37:00.000-08:00

... and i don't feel fine.

Mahjongg/ Dear Leader

2005-05-01T09:27:00.000-08:00

Another concert last night... probably the last one until I come back for next year. It was pretty good. I enjoyed it anyway. no pictures, unfortunately. Mahjongg played some guitar-laden songs which were great, and then some animal collactive- like stuff, which was good, but not as much my style. it was fun though because i had been the animal collective concert, so i know what they were all about. They wer friendly though, and told us they wanted to talk to people afterwards. The crowd was TINY. and nao and i were probably the youngest people there. Oh well, it was still cool. Dear Leader is very political (if you hadn't gathered from the name). I guess the lead singer had a band before this one and he did shows with morissey, david bowie, coldplay, and at the drive-in. quite an impressive list. after one song he was all "oh, that was so emo... so emo it hurts" it was funny. then he was all "this is the song you hear on the radio. it's called raging red." it was rather amusing to hear him talk about his own music on the radio... and the expressions that went along with it. all in all, it was a good concert, and a relief to relax after all that school... i'm supposed to be studying for my finals now, but i'm not. reading period is annoying. oh well... so good/bad news: spoon cancelled their concert here, which sucks for those who wanted to go, but since i wouldn't have been here, it may rock for me because they're trying to make up the date in the fall and i might be around. that would be a great show. i'm still missing hot hot heat and the new pornographers though... sigh. so it goes.

2005-04-23T23:25:00.000-08:00

muse.

2005-04-23T23:24:00.001-08:00

muse... well, muse's light display anyway...

2005-04-23T23:24:00.000-08:00

razorlight... in red

2005-04-23T23:22:00.001-08:00

razorlight

2005-04-23T23:22:00.000-08:00

razorlight.. it was SO hot... hence the drinking. ;)

2005-04-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

razorlight

Muse/ Razorlight

2005-04-22T15:04:00.000-08:00

I went to UMass on wednesday to see Razorlight and Muse... it was great. Probably the realest concert i've been to yet, in that there was actually security, and it was an mtv thing. It was fun though... Razorlight talked to the audience a bit, which was cool. I love accents!!! The lead singer kept talking about how hot it was... it was something insane... probably around 90 and we were in a hot gym area with a bunch of people jumping around randomly. Muse didn't say much, but they just don't really have to. Another awesome concert. They played an encore, at which point they someone threw these enormous white balloons with red confetti or something inside, so that when they popped it went everywhere. It was cool. Anyway... we got told that if anyone caught us taking photos again, they'd make us delete them, so i didn't get too many and most were taken discreetly, so as not to get caught, but nao has a few. I'll make her email them to me, and post a few later. Also haven't gotten eliza to give me rainer maria photos. we shall see. :)

Animal Collective

2005-04-17T11:55:00.000-08:00

I went to Hampshire last night... always an interesting experience. Animal Collective and Ariel Pink (and Gang Wizard ... ?) were playing outside. And it was free. It was a little bizarre, but fun. Lots of hippies. :D Lot's of flashing colorful strobes and continuous wafts of pot. ;) And musicians jumping around in animal masks. There was a guy in the front row in a complete animal suit. I thought it was a dog, but it may have been a donkey or something. Amusing, either way. Unfortuanately, we all forgot cameras. Oh well. We took the PVTA there at 9:20 ish and had a friend come pick us up. We got back to Lamont at around 1. And made tea and sat around talking. It was an adventure, that's for sure. I also saw a poster saying the Muse and Razorlight are playing at UMass on wednesday, but that is probably sold out. I'm going to try to find out/get tix. Also, here are some (really bad) photos from Of Montreal. I haven't gotten any from Rainer Maria yet, I don't know if they'll come out. We shall see. :)

2005-04-17T10:22:00.000-08:00

Of Montreal

2005-04-17T10:14:00.000-08:00

Of Montreal

Rainer Maria

2005-04-17T07:39:00.000-08:00

I went to a concert at the campus center on thursday... it's sort of an unfortunate location, but it was only 5 bucks, so i went. Levy, a band from New York, opened from Rainer Maria. They were both pretty good. I enjoyed it immensely. I got a free CD from Levy, and an autograph from Rainer Maria. Levy sounds completely different live and on CD. I wouldn't have guessed it was the same band, really. It was fun though. If i get any photos later, i'll post them. It was a fun concert though. The power went out three times during Levy's first song. Oh well. Good times.

Of Montreal

2005-04-14T15:25:00.000-08:00

for some reason this post got all out of order, but i don't feel like fixing it, so you;ll just have to figure it out. :P

so i went to a concert last night: the management, st. thomas and of montreal. it was fun and bizarre. i find those two things often go together. it went something like this:

the first band to come on was the management... in other words, two guys in black and a giant iPod thing behind them. ( note to self: starting a concert by announcing.. wow! this is our first real venue! .. has the ability to worry some audience members. ) yeah... i think they probably do all the instruments themselves, but can't do everything live. so it's recorded, and then on stage what they do is dance around and sing. this has potential to be painful. but somehow, it was just hilarious. maybe it was the mood i was in (the HOORAY I'M AT A CONCERT... LIVE MUSIC!!!) but for some reason, i just laughed the whole time. at one point one of the singers said this song is about high school love ( what song isn't?) and then the song started. and we noticed that one guy had a piece of paper in his hand... and they proceeded to sing the lyrics from the paper... umm.. yeah... they didn't know the words to their own song. not that it really mattered,you couldn't understand them anyway. so they continued to flabbergast the audience with their beats and napoleonic dancing for 20 minutes, all in all it was fun... but i would have been actually impressed if it had been live. they had nice voices, and it was a fun live idea,... but somehow it just didn't do live music justice. they're better on a flat plastic disc.

quick change of pace: the next band...
two guys who were a significant bit older than the others.... this time in long sleeve button up shirts come on stage. st. thomas... from norway and sweden. with an acoustic guitar, a tambourine, harmonica, and .. a banjo. :D yeah. so he first says... hmm... that mangamenet band... i like them. they have a new fan. with a norwegian accent :D yay. so he introduces himself and his friend... who never says anything. and then they play a song. it's nice music.
i really liked it in fact... but it ... a little out of place. in a good way i think. so they play two songs, stop and ask if the audience has any questions. becuase he likes getting questions from
the audience. it was so cool. a few songs later, he asks again whether anyone has questions. at one point he warns us: i\'m going to
play a hippy song now. :D so he does. he stops once and says : i\'m
a really sensitive guy. people don\'t think i am in norway, because i
was doing a concert there and i gave the audience the middle finger
(he exhibits both of his middle fingers) and the norwegian press was
there and i was on the front page flipping off the audience. so
people there think i\'m an asshole, but i\'m a sensitive guy really.
maybe i\'m too sensitive. :) hw was great. then towards the end of the
set he looks at us. stops and says, i\'m going to play the cool song
now. people always like the cool song. and two members of of
montreal get on stage with him and drum and play the tambourine. :)
they were obviously friends. it was fun. anyway. he finished up his
set, thanks us profusely, and leaves. there is about a half hour break
for of montreal to set up. during which nao and i started talking
about europe (germany and france) and this guy who was sitting across
from us and goes to amherst, says... i\'m from germany! and nao grins
and starts talking to him in german, and he talks back to her in
english and i\'m just sitting there grinning and it\'s fun. and he
hated the management but liked st. thomas. :) it was fun. so
anyway, of montreal walks on stage... in slow motion and backwards...
:) in insane costumes. unfortunately none of the photos came out i
dont think. but it was fun. the lead songer had on red/black
pinstripe pants, a red shirt, and a coat thing, with three quarter
sleeves. it was tight, until the waist, where there was a beltish band
and then it went down to his knees. it was cool. backup guitar/vocals
in a yellowish suit, with a scarf. bass player in a white suit.
drummer/ trumpet player... everythingist, in black and red. and
keyboardist in a black top and a pink skirt and pink tights. and
lights in her hair. so they did their set. which was energetic poppy
guitar filled and amusing in all sorts of ways. i\'m not even sure how
to describe this music. you\'ll have to hear it. while again, it was
not nearly as precise as a record allows it to be, and the vocals were
hard to understand, it was pretty true to their music. most of the
songs they did were from their new album the sunlandic twins, but they
also performed some from satanic panic in the attic, and who knows
what else. so, the lead singer dashes offstage and returns a little
later with a transparent light blue raincoat hoodie thing. and black
pants. and a light blue fluffly winter hat. pom pom included. and
they precede to sing the song "summer in oslo" remind me to go to
oslo in the summer some time. sounds like fun. after a few more
songs he dashed off and returns in a white tshirt with a line around
the neck sorta. actually, it was anticlimactic after the other
outfits. unfortuanltely, they are dressed "normally" in all their
photos on line. oh well. so they say bye bye, thanks... and we clap
and they do a three song encore, and then leave the stage one at a
time, so we have a full band, and then one guitar, bass, and two
keyboards... the backup guitarist leaves, and then the rest of them
one at a time, until it\'s silent. it was pretty fun actually. i\'d go
again. :P anyway,,,, i\'m sick of typing, so that\'s your review for
now... in 3 hours i experienced typical college student computer punk,
norwegian hippies, and bizarre guitar wielding inhabitants of saturn
(or georgia... ). if you have any questions, please ask... i love it
when my audiences ask queyou couldn't understand them anyway. so they continued to flabbergast the audience with their beats, incomprehensible lyrics, and napoleonic dancing for 20 minutes, all in all it was fun... but i would have been actually impressed if it had been live. they had nice voices, and it was a fun live idea,... but somehow it just didn't do live music justice. they're better on a flat plastic disc.

quick change of pace: the next band... two guys who were a significant bit older than the others.... this time in long sleeve button up shirts come on stage. st. thomas... from norway and sweden. with an acoustic guitar, a tambourine, harmonica, and .. a banjo. :D yeah. so he first says... hmm... that mangamenet band... i like them. they have a new fan. with a norwegian accent :D yay. so he introduces himself and his friend... who never says anything. and then they play a song. it's nice music. i really liked it in fact... but it ... a little out of place. in a good way i think. so they play two songs, stop and ask if the audience has any questions. becuase he likes getting questions from the audience. it was so cool. a few songs later, he asks again whether anyone has questions. at one point he warns us: i'm going to play a hippy song now. :D so he does. he stops once and says : i'm a really sensitive guy. people don't think i am in norway, because i was doing a concert there and i gave the audience the middle finger (he exhibits both of his middle fingers) and the norwegian press was there and i was on the front page flipping off the audience. so people there think i'm an asshole, but i'm a sensitive guy really. maybe i'm too sensitive. :) he was great. then towards the end of the set he looks at us. stops and says, i'm going to play the cool song now. people always like the cool song. and two members of of montreal get on stage with him and drum and play the tambourine. :) they were obviously friends. it was fun. definitely a cool song. anyway. he finished up his set, thanked us profusely, and leaves. there is about a half hour break for of montreal to set up. during which nao and i started talking about europe (germany and france) and this guy who was sitting across from us and goes to amherst, says... i'm from germany! and nao grins and starts talking to him in german, and he talks back to her in english and i'm just sitting there grinning and it's fun. and he hated the management but liked st. thomas. :) it was fun.

so anyway, of montreal walks on stage... in slow motion and backwards... :) in insane costumes. unfortunately none of the photos came out ido nt think. but it was fun. the lead songer had on red/black pinstripe pants, a red shirt, and a coat thing, with three quarter sleeves. it was tight, until the waist, where there was a beltish band and then it went down to his knees. it was cool. backup guitar/vocals in a yellowish suit, with a scarf. bass player in a white suit. drummer/ trumpet player... everything, in black and red. and keyboardist in a black top and a pink skirt and pink tights. and lights in her hair. so they did their set. which was energetic poppy guitar filled and amusing in all sorts of ways. i'm not even sure how to describe this music. you'll have to listen to it. while again, it was not nearly as precise as a record allows it to be, and the vocals were hard to understand, it was pretty true to their music. most of the songs they did were from their new album the sunlandic twins, but theyalso performed some from satanic panic in the attic, and who knows what else. so, the lead singer dashes offstage and returns a little later with a transparent light blue raincoat hoodie thing. and black pants. and a light blue fluffly winter hat. pom pom included. and they proceed to sing the song "summer in oslo" remind me to go to oslo in the summer some time. sounds like fun. after a few more songs he dashed off and returns in a white tshirt with a line around the neck sorta. actually, it was anticlimactic after the other outfits. unfortuanltely, they are dressed "normally" in all their photos on line. oh well. so they say bye bye, thanks... and we clap and they do a three song encore, and then leave the stage one at a time, so we have a full band, and then one guitar, bass, and two keyboards... the backup guitarist leaves, and then the rest of them one at a time, until it's silent. it was pretty fun actually. i'd go again. :P anyway,,,, i'm sick of typing, so that's the review... in 3 hours i experienced typical college student computer punk, norwegian hippies, and the bizarre guitar wielding inhabitants of saturn (or georgia... ). if you have any questions, please ask... i love it when my audiences ask questions. ;) if any of the photos come out, i'll post them. :)

bands i am annoyed about missing this summer:
hot hot heat
rilo kiley/nada surf
spoon/the clientele
the new pornographers
...sigh. oh well. i'll have to stay in northampton some summer. :)

OK Go!!!!

2005-03-27T16:03:00.000-09:00

i went to see OK Go last night... yay! they were so much fun. I'm posting a few photos of them... They have a new guitarist, so he pretty much vanished after the show, but Nao got one photo of them all together. I got Damian, Tim, and Dan to autograph my shirt though, so that's pretty cool. Anyway, it was a rocking concert, and i eagerly await their new album. :)

2005-03-27T12:00:00.000-09:00

OK Go

2005-03-27T11:59:00.000-09:00

Damian (lead guitar/vocals) with Nao and I

sept mois

2005-03-18T10:26:00.000-09:00

49,5 jours encore. :)

spring break

2005-03-14T15:10:00.000-09:00

hi... haven't written in awhile... it is now spring break. i'm trying to do an insane amount of work because i am staying at smith and i want to get a little ahead for the next week or so if possible... by reading a zillion plays for my theatre history class and then i will have one less thing to do during school. i have four really long ones left. sigh. and a bunch of other work. but i am not complaining... really, i'm not. :) it's actually pretty fun being here alone, because i love the college and the campus and the town of northampton, minus the stress of impending doom... i mean, deadlines... ;) so i've been watching a lot of movies and wandering about town a lot. and hanging out with a couple friends who are staying for awhile. my roomie is leaving for new york tomorrow... lucky. ok, well, i guess i shall proceed to procrastinate somehow... :) not too much to say. teehee...

let's talk about spaceships or anything except you and me, ok?

March

2005-03-01T01:39:00.000-09:00

happy rabbit's day again. i haven't posted in a long time, and i really don't have anything new to say. I took two midterms today, french and theatre history, and my ass still hurts from the kicking it got. ;) on the upside i got a package from my mom. on the downside, she enclosed my tax forms. on the weather side, it snowed. actually, that was kinda fun. I have had theatre rehearsals every night like crazy for four hours a night, and I walked out of the theatre and blinked... and it seemed to be snowing. it was cool. only 9 days of school until spring break!!! yay!!!i went to the hampshire college version of the Telluride film festival... they showed basically the same ones as they did here... it actually made me miss home. Everyone was so homer... hippies in casual sports clothing... hadn't brushed their hair, laughed at random things... it was great. i went with my roomie, ellen, nao, eliza and her friend doug who came to visit for the weekend. we had fun. the van driver was playing really amusing music and we all started dancing around on the way back. i have had crazy rehearsals lately, so it's been that and homework and no time for anything else. hopefully life will calm down after this week. so, yeah... blah blah blah. welcome to march. :)

six months!

2005-02-18T18:42:00.000-09:00

:)
c'est tout que je veux dire.

Girlfriend in a Coma

2005-02-15T12:12:00.000-09:00

i know, i know, it's serious.
(:D hooray for the Smiths)
..i wish every day was like sunday...
or maybe i don't because then tomorrow would always be monday, and that would be quite distressing. for more good music, can i recommend ambulance ltd? you can listen to seven of their songs at www.ambulancenyc.com i have lots more music recommendations, but i have more homework... i need to get my priorities straight. :S enjoy.

Happy Valentines, Hallmark!

2005-02-14T12:47:00.000-09:00

see greeting card companies? we really do love you!!! we also love consumerism and capitalism and all that good stuff! hooray for corporate america! ;)
if ever a holiday was creating by card companies, this is it.
...although i have to admit, the chocolate dipped heart shaped cookies we had for lunch were worth starting a holiday for. :)
love, nikki

blah blah

2005-02-12T17:25:00.000-09:00

ok, postponing homework again. I don't really have anything to say... not that i ever do. :S Tonight i am going to the Vagina Monologues... Smith does them every year. My roommate is in it... it should be good. I don't really feel like doing any work, because dinner starts in 40 minutes, and then i have to work because i told this girl i barely know but sometimes work with that i would do her shift tonight because she had something better to do... don't we all. So anyway, last night was amusing... a typical friday night at smith in which the top five (well, ok, 6... i though of another) things to do include, in no particular order:
1. Get drunk.
2. Do homework.
3. Color wildflowers in in a coloring book.
4. Watch (and laugh at/with) the people who are getting drunk and stumbling around in the hall.
5. watch movies.
6. look forward to brunch... seriously brunch is the hilight of my week. it rocks!!
sigh... i did 2, 4, 5, and 6 of course.... feeling rather accomplished. i also watched 3... so in a way, i was there for everything there is to do... it was fun actually. so, anyway... we shall see what a saturday night brings.... ;) ...fortunately there is brunch on sundays too. :D

Mardi Gras

2005-02-08T17:47:00.000-09:00

Happy Mardi Gras everybody!!! Eat a lot of food... (that's my good advice for the day) Hooray! Pancakes for dinner!!! :)

stuff...

2005-02-07T16:39:00.000-09:00

Theatre History is desperately boring. And worse, it takes place on couches. How am i ever going to learn about Beaumarchais and Moliere and all those other french and italian and english 18th century playwrites if i can't even stay awake? blah. Philosophy is rocking though. I can't say that i understand it all, but that makes it so much better. Today we talked about objective reality and how god basically had to exist ( in Descartes mind) because he was perfect and one aspect of perfection is existence (if something doesn't exist, than it is less than perfect). then he went off about how dark is a materially false idea because there aren't really dark waves. it was great. at one point he told us it was okay if we didn't understand Descartes because his contemporaries didn't either. We also were told that Arthur Conan Doyle has more objective reality and therefore more perfection in idea that Sherlock Holmes... what will Scotland Yard think? ;) anyway, philosophy is great. at least it makes me think... that is all i ask. the bad news, yeah even worse than my theatre history class, is the fact that i am not ocming home for spring break. but i'm not going to think about that because i don't want to cry. :) love from smith... nikki

Superbowl Sunday

2005-02-06T14:53:00.000-09:00

I heard the commercials aren't going to be as good this year because the companies are being careful to avoid anything too controversial. I guess there is a million dollar fine for anything risque and a few commercials have already been pulled. lame. the whole point of the superbowl is to sit around, eat snacks, and watch commercials... not that they are ever particularly brilliant... :S yeah, i could use a superbowl sundae...

Happy Rabbit's Day

2005-02-01T13:22:00.000-09:00

For those of you who don't know, rabbit's day is the first day of every month... i'm really not sure where this came from. It occurs to me that a friend and I may have made it up in like fourth grade, but i've been celebrating it ever since. Celebrating rabbits day goes something like this:
me: Happy Rabbit's Day!!!!
poor unsuspecting person: huh?
me: umm... just smile and nod. (i use to explain it. i still do if they say huh? particularly convincingly, but usually they just don't care. it was traumatic to realize that.)
anyway, if you ever have heard of or celebrate rabbit's day, or if you'd like to start... please do. or just feel free to say huh?

last day of january

2005-01-31T15:25:00.000-09:00

this is the last day of january. (i figured i should clarify my vague title.) yeah, same old same old... not much going on. i just got out of a theatre history class in which it was assumed that i had never been to the smith library home page. joy. i'm ready for a nap. now that sounds intellectually stimulating. ho hum.

friday fun

2005-01-30T03:13:00.000-09:00

yesterday was fun... i like fridays... i don't have any classes after lunch. so i went to my philosohy discussion section and then my french class, which were both not bad, fun as far as going to school in the morning can be. i actually like both of these classes. then i came back and ate lunch. food here is actually surprisingly good. i guess smith is rated second in the nation for bed and breakfast schools... not to mention being like 13th on the list on liberal arts colleges... yeah, i like my school. ;) so then after lunch i did nothing for awhile (it's amazing how fast time goes by when you are doing nothing... i'm always surprised by how long i can do nothing, without even realizing.) at three i went sledding on this random hill with my roomie and some friends. it was fun, except (or maybe because) none of us had sleds... we took cardboard boxes and plastic-y couch cushions. we got really cold though. i felt really prepared... the alaskan who left her snow boots and snow pants in AK and wanders out into the 0 degree weather in ripped corderouys... meh. afterwards we came back to the house and had tea.... i love tea... it's like my favorite tradition... smith is big on traditions. but it's really fun to sit in the living room with a bunch of other girls and drink tea, eat cookies, and play games or chat. i love it. and it was perfect after sledding. anyway, my day continued to be awesome, like that night when i went up the roof of mcconnell hall and looked at saturn and its rings through a telescope. they were really pretty. and i got one of my friends from arizona her first icicle. it was exciting. i also got film mailers in the mail so i can send of my photos... i love getting photos... it's like the most exciting things ever. and sending them off is fun because it means i get mail. :D anyway, tomorrow is going to be a makeup for having fun all weekend day... urgh. unless i decide to go ice skating instead. which is quite possible... ;) anyway, more later. :)

melted dark chocolate...

2005-01-25T20:03:00.000-09:00

a little while ago i stuck a hard block of dark chocolate right underneath my bedside lamp. i moved the light so it would be closer to the chocolate... and promptly forgot about it. yummy. a little... liquified... but highly yum. i just thought everyone should know that. moral of the story: chocolate is much better warm... and melted isn't necessarily a negative thing. as long as it is not hersheys. bleh.

School again ...

2005-01-24T12:08:00.000-09:00

Well, I'm back for the portion of the year i gratefully spend in a blue state. The bad news is that classes start tomorrow, which means no more lazing around and sleeping until 1... sigh. I'm taking High Intermediate French... Directing 1... Theatre History... either History of Modern Philosophy or Intro to Sociology if i don't get into that... and two one credit courses: french conversation, and theatre production. who knows... well, i guess i'll just have to go to class and see what happens... more when i find out, but right now red AK doesn't seem quite so bad...

Telluride Films

2005-01-18T23:17:00.000-09:00

Tonight i went to the Telluride MountainFilms Festival. I've been going for years now. It wasn't quite as good as some of the previous years, but still fun and amazing. The second night is thursday... i'm not quite sure why they're doing it tues/thurs, but as long as i get to go... The films are a lot of fun. People do the coolest things. There was one about John Muir hiking solo across the australian continent... because it was a solo hike he did all the filming himself. It was great. there was another movie about french base jumpers who went to Mali and did their thing... A film made by the harvard film club or something which was done in ink and pencil and was really nice. A skiing film narrated by a 100 year old man. A film about a guy who lives in the middle of nowhere and says he doesn't need anything... and he's still learning patience. A film showing many HIV positive orphans in africa singing a song. The final movie was a mockumentary about three guys who sneak into people's yards to participate in the extreme sport that is the trampoline. They didn't even do any flips.. but it was hysterical. Anyway, i really enjoyed it. It was bittersweet though, because it was one of the last times i have to see people, because i am leaving in like 2 days. oh well... c'est la vie. je suis trop triste maintenant... alors, au revior.

last days in AK

2005-01-17T21:57:00.000-09:00

i leave to go back to smith on the 21st... i am not at all ready. not ready to do homework and take classes and wake up in the pre-noon hours... not ready to leave the people here. it's going to be impossibly hard, but like everything else, it's just sort of going to happen, no matter what i do. so i will resign myself to the idea and enjoy the remainder of my time to it's fullest.

2005-01-14T00:00:00.000-09:00

yeah... this is a photo i took in the pompidou center in paris... i got yelled at shorty thereafter, but i thought this photo was just way cool. modern art is so much fun. the entire room smelled like cinnamon and cloves and stuff because that is what the little blobs hanging at the bottom are filled with. it was excellent. anyway... just felt the need to send this photo into the world. :)

reflections

2005-01-12T01:52:00.000-09:00

i have been more impressed with randomly clicking the next blog button than ever before today... not that i have a lot of experience with that. just tonight, i have come across a blog giving me a interesting new look at the great debate topic that is love, another with photos of france, the diary of an expatriot, a director in L.A., and many other people, each willing to put time, effort, and serious thought into creating a blog. I am quite impressed. I just wanted to send out a general thank-you to everyone who bothers. Also, if anyone happens to stumble across this and feels like it, please leave me the address of your blog so i can be inspired further.
On another note, it has been pretty warm here, amazing for alaska in january. i am actually driving in to my house, which is an oddity in itself. i have, however, been ice-skating a lot lately... as close as i'll get to moving effortlessly, i think. aside from the blisters, i am in love with the magic of the ice and the blade... it's been great. i plan to go again, perhaps even tomorrow. it's so relaxing being home after my first semester in college... just sleeping and skating and watching movies and interneting. intensely enjoyable. :)
also, if anyone has any other ideas, conspiracies, enlightening bits of information, arguments, beliefs, thoughts, controversies, or things that recently began to interest them, et cetera and so on and so forth, i would be honored to hear about them.
my recent thoughts about love: it isn't effortless, it cannot be labeled or known for sure, it is ever-changing and impossible to pin down, it is perhaps a little subconcious, it is instincitve, it can die, it can transcend and forgive, it is defined differently by everyone, it is response, or at very least characterized by response, it is about perseverence and forgiveness, and it doesn't mind hurting people. love, that is. i just started thinking about this... so i'm sure ideas will change. someone has that love is not having to say sorry. i think love is not having to think about forgiveness. any contributions?

elliot smith... he said it!

2005-01-11T01:44:00.000-09:00

it's all about takin' the easy way out for you, i suppose.

2005-01-11T01:08:00.000-09:00

this is a pretty bad picture of the side of Lamont House... my house at Smith College. I love it there!!! Anyway, college rocks my socks. I've only been going for one semester and i'm in love with it... or maybe that's why... well, i guess i'll find out next semester. which starts the 24th i think. that's going to be crazy. :) in the very best sense of the word...

2005-01-10T23:22:00.000-09:00

view of la defense in paris... sigh. i miss it lots.

poem of witness

2005-01-10T01:27:00.000-09:00

ok, this was an assignment for my poetry class last year... the assignment was to describe something you had witnessed... try it. it's kinda fun. and harder than it sounds. this is what i ended up with. (don't worry: it's a prose poem, it's supposed to look like a paragraph)

witness

I have witnessed the earth blooming and dying, people laughing, people crying-cheeks red, people striving to make ends meet, new kittens, broken glass, chicken noodle soup, warm gingerbread, hot milky tea, powerful love, companionship, hate, death, war, dried-up pens, politicians who lie, creativity in progress, guns, chocolate, a girl doing her hair- wisps loose around her shoulders, boys wrestling and flinging mud, comforting mothers, computers freezing, kilns stoked into life, new wet clay, rolls of film, knives, tickets to foreign countries, beautiful paintings, coins jingling in his pockets, the scribbles of a two-year old, poetry, misunderstanding, white walls coated with hand prints, delicate purple flowers, old dogs, people humming, misery, hunger, ripped clothing, beach rocks, roadkill, magic, illusion, “trust me,” nothing, mysterious books stacked one on top of the another, dented cars, swimming, always chlorine, always lockers, always books and papers, always food, notes from loved ones, thinly veiled insults, more biblical allusion, a notebook of ideas, blindness, pages of words, pins jabbed crookedly into the ceiling, unreturned love, legos covering the floor, dad yelling, dad interrupting, dad unreasonable, dad loves us, I know, I know, I don’t know anything, marshmallows melting into hot chocolate, pepper repelled by soap, murder, colleges, music on the air, curling hair, bright candles, betadine covered wound- congealing over blood, Christmas trees glistening with lights, black shoes, blue stars, endings, honest lies, volcanic eruptions, charm bracelets, ultimate desires, that tree- no, that one- to the left, posters, brutally honest mirrors, theatre, confusion, eyes alight with love, with hate, with fear, graceful pale legs, dipping into the ocean, surrounded by friends, enemies, allies, broken promises, glaciers, birds, whistles, songs, mountains, laughter, worms, joy, hope, truth, lizards, noise,

silence.

Too many poems. So I write none.

2005-01-10T01:15:00.000-09:00

hooray for paris... touristy, but beautiful.

love?

2005-01-10T00:22:00.000-09:00

what if someone tells you they love you? do you believe them? do you believe yourself if you love them back? this is what you get for being a confused teenager. whose idea was this anyway? :S

hmm

2005-01-10T00:10:00.000-09:00

ever do stupid things and not know why? ok, good. just checking. i'm asuming i'm not the only one, of course. i might be. i'm a little unnerved by the whole giving-away-of-personal-info-over-internet thing, but i just wanted to say. i'm sorry.

Hi?

2005-01-09T21:57:00.000-09:00

hi... i've never done this... it's entirely random and i'm bored... more procrastination on the internet. i suppose that is the real reason. well, i'm just going to post this and see what happens. teehee. yeah, this is going to be horribly boring. :)